Beyond all that we ask…

It is likely that God’s answer to our prayers from the meeting with this birthmother have been “not now.” Please continue to pray for her with us. We are praying for God to keep her and her baby healthy and that He would surround them with people who will love them as Christ does.

During one of our many, many conversations I told Nick, “I don’t think it’s possible to be okay if this doesn’t work out. I think this will break me.”

I have spent the better part of the past month quoting Ephesians 3:20 back to God in my prayers.

“Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us,…”

I am persistent and wanted to remind God that He is able to make it happen. He is able to make this child the one we have the privilege of raising. And He is. And I was waiting on Him to use that to give us this baby.

This weekend we went away. My Ephesians 3:20 prayer and God’s provision hit me like a ton of bricks at one point. Embarrassingly enough it was in the middle of a Dollywood show. I was the awkward girl crying at the cheery Christmas songs.

My conversation with Nick was brought to my mind, and then I saw like it had been there the whole time that God is able. He is able to sustain. He is able to hold us up. He is able. I will not break because in my weakness, His grace is sufficient. I wanted to explain the the lady next to me why I was in tears, but that would have made things perhaps more awkward.

I have never prayed like God has taught me to pray through this process. This adoption journey is the hardest thing I have ever done. I am more unsure of myself here than I ever have been, but I am becoming more and more sure of my God.

Please continue to pray for this birthmother. Please pray we were able to show her a reflection of God’s love for her in the short time we were with her. My prayer is that she will learn and always remember that God is able and His love for her and her baby is too deep to measure.